The Him in me

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.....

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
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These are the words that kept me going no matter what happens. Singing it out loud creates a superb feeling. In times when i'm happy, satisfied, desperate, heartbroken, intensely dissapointed.No matter how good or how bad the situation is, He reminds me that He is in me, feeling what i'm feeling much deeper. Most of all i know He loves me.

There are many choices taken that failed myself and the people around me, the path i'm on may not satisfy all parties but it is laid this way because He's working His plan for me. I've surrendered my life to Him, and am proud that He's with me, guiding and building me up.

I might feel like to 'drop dead and die' at times, and be the one i hate to be because all things just don't work in the way i like them to be. At times when cases, lifestyles, things, people, and attitude that i like and love do not all belong to me or owned, frustations and disappointment will take me over. End up i'll hate myself and go worse.
Yes, but He who's in me made me new over and over again.
He made me realised that things must not always happen in the way i like them to be, but always in the way that i want them to be, yeap, there is, huge difference between both.

When i feel Him in me, nothing goes wrong anymore. Emptiness, disappointments and dullness which were once so intense will just disappear. That's the love and healing only He can give.

After reading this, i hope people around me that's feeling so upset, or disappointed still would let it go and live a new life. Close the sad book of yours, and write a new one full of hope and light. If only a certain chapters that are sad which gave you excuses to not close the whole book, easy...just tear off the few chapters and burn them away.

I do know a few that still couldn't start anew because they just wouldn't. I hope you will know Him too. With Him, nothing is impossible. Trust me, because i trust Him. Knowing Him is easy, but understanding Him and earning Him....?tough i would say, but it will be extremely sweet and everlasting..

Till then,ttyl.hugs.